i am stilled by doubt
not idling like the machine at traffic lights
waiting on compulsion
nor held taut with urgent messages
like the power lines
and not anxiously shouting, No!
like that high brick wall.
i look out through glass
across the street
to stiffly swinging insects levering clay
onto the back of a centipede
tended by distant bipedal scurryings,
and i am still.
i am
the brown crisp of unbelief
curling in a gutter,
the dusky orange ephemera
on high grey cloud,
the slim horns of silvery dilemma
lagging behind a late sun
and suspended in a puddle.